Living without boundaries so there is nothing there to protect you!
I struggle a lot with loving others, doing for others. Being there for others, and allowing others to do the same for me. My fear is rejection and I pray everyday I can get past that. In hindsight “no” isn’t the worst outcome. But being so deep in and not having your energy matched in any situation breaks hearts. I struggle with this in almost every aspect of my life. Being in my late 30s I never thought I’d let it get me this deep in. It’s hurting me. It’s drowning me. It’s killing me. And I can’t shake it. I accept so much from people that shouldn’t even get a hello from me. I let people treat me so bad and I convince myself that if I’m good to them, if I’m there for them, if I’m always available my love can change them. But what happens when the objective for them was never love? What if it wasn’t even like? Right now I am in therapy, I want to be able to let go before I hate you. I want to be able to stand up for myself…… I want to walk away the first time, at the first ...