Distance....

 Everyday I’m fighting 

Fighting an urge to love you. 

Silencing a loud roar that wants to break out of me. 

You make me feel strange. 

You make me feel like I’m lacking something. 

You make me feel like there is something wrong with me. 

You make me feel like I did something wrong....

What is it that I lack?

What was it that I did?

What’s wrong? With me? 


I think I need to give you space.....

Maybe you could use some distance...

Maybe time apart will fix this....


The problem is I don’t know....

I have to assume that maybe there’s something there that won’t grow, it won’t work, I can’t fix.....


Somewhere in here the truth is lacking....

The fact that I have to assume drives me crazy 

Because I don’t know....


What if it’s nothing...

What if I’m just overthinking 

Words...

Actions 

Interpreting lacking all wrong

The In between 

The wait time... 

what if I read it wrong...

Reading it wrong.....


What if I’m longing for it so bad....

I’m day dreaming so long...

I want it so bad....

That I missed the sign...

I missed the rejection..... 


Distance.... 

will either fix this 

Or destroy it.

It will either break a lie

Or strengthen the truth...


Walk away.... 

let it go.... 

& if it comes back.... 

the rest is history. 


August 18th 6:46pm......

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