Kamryn, sweet Kamryn.

 My beautiful baby girl Kamryn is 16 months old. She’s the best thing that has ever happened to me because I purely and wholeheartedly prayed for her. God promised her to me and when the timing was perfect he blessed me with her. For the last 3 months I’ve been fighting tooth and nail with this illness and I’ve spent a lot of time with her being out of work but also away from her being hospitalized. Right now emotionally I am a wreck! My baby girl is a super energetic, full of life, biggest personally having 1 year old I’ve ever met. When I’m around her it’s a roller Coaster ride to the crazy house (Laugh out Loud). Being away from my baby because I’m sick, I’m hospitalized, I don’t have the strength to mommy is emotionally damaging. Being hospitalized, she is my motivation to getting out! She is the goal I have set to achieve. 1. I must get home to my baby girl! Before she was apart of my life being hospitalized took a toll on my mental but it wasn’t as deep. I only had me to worry about, to look after, to be there for. Of course I was fighting to make it home to my family, my mom, dad and siblings and grandparents but trying to make it home to your own offspring is different. 

12/5 @ 7:30 pm I had an emotional breakdown because I realized it’s been 2 days since I’ve seen my baby girl. 

I know she misses me because being out of work for 3 months we have gotten so close, she’s gotten so clingy, in the house when I get out of bed she pops up, she notice I’m gone, when I leave a room or even leave the house she cries because she notice. So not seeing her mommy for 2 days I know she’s looking for me. And I’m looking for her. 

I thank God for my support system. My mother, my sister who takes great care of her when I’m admitted. My brothers who checks on us and offer financial help when they can. My friend Steph who offer emotional support. Without her I don’t know how I’d make it through most of my rainy days. 

God. God is amazing. My faith in him is a big part of what Gets me through these hospital stays! These pain crisis, this time away from my daughter. My relationship with God is no where near where it needs to be but the fact that in the midst God is still there every step of the way my faith in him will never decrease or stray! 

Whenever you see my name, social media name, my business page, my blog or YouTube name scroll down your screen please say a prayer for me and my sweet baby girl. Prayer works and God hears our cry’s. He especially hears the prayer of you praying for someone else. 

Emotionally I need a prayer. Physically, on the outside I look great. On the inside Lord I need You Now! My cover is strong. It’s the inside pages I need help and prayer with.

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